Day 67: “What Did You Say Again?” Character

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be preoccupied in my thoughts about what they might say and all sorts of things, only to completely miss the reality of what came out of their mouth as the words they speak.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear hearing what the other person says the first time because I have not prepared myself to hear what the other person says.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the belief that I need to mentally prepare myself for the unpredictability of what another person may say that may be a threat.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define others as foes/competitors when I am listening to what the other person has to say, such that I react by/through not listening the first time to defend myself from what I might hear that can be a threat to my experience of myself in my thoughts.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to immediately expect that the other person will say something that will be a threat to my existence such that I immediately separate myself from the words spoken here, into knowledge/information that I deem safe such as all knowledge/information I can remember about the other person.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abuse the question of asking, “What did you say?”, as a means to assert myself in a position of authority out of the false logic that I am superior apparently because I spoke about myself once, while the other had to repeat themselves.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the belief that I am walking ahead of others when/as other people repeat themselves.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to attach an imaginary scene where I perceive myself to be running to the finish line while I have manipulated the other person to repeat their words/steps only to finish much later before I do, when I ask other people to repeat themselves.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the belief that I am stupid when I repeat myself because I was not heard the first time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself to be so worthless that I am ignored by the other person when/as they ask me to repeat myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to attempt to exact revenge by/through asking others to repeat themselves, in an attempt to relive a memory that I was not satisfied with and become the self righteous being that abuses rather than be abused.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the belief that I am worthless when/as someone asks me to repeat myself or ignores what I have said altogether.

About Kasper Kwan

Currently supporting myself in the process of establishing my words in the physical principles of Oneness and Equality. Had to start this process because I have allowed and accepted my words to be established in the mental idea of self-interest/greed, and only realised this recently.
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2 Responses to Day 67: “What Did You Say Again?” Character

  1. IngridS says:

    Cool Thanks this gives some insight in the ‘not hearing’ character.

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