Day 188: It’s Too Late For Me I Feel

I commit myself to when/as I see myself fearing being ‘too late’ to complete a task, to stop and breathe. I realise that in a way, with one life, I will always be able to complete the task GIVEN that I am here, I am not complaining, I am learning from my failures and mistakes each time. Therefore I realise the delusional opinion of ‘there is not enough time’, even if the deadline is X time away, ‘there is not enough time’ is me saying and giving into the limitation, “I don’t want to”, and I realise that in this breath, I meet with/as myself – who I will be, what will I become with the limited time I have on Earth – will I be willing to push through and do the task until it is done, or will I give up and give into limitation, with the understanding that no choice is free, every choice has a consequence as my past is evidence of. I commit myself to stop preoccupying my Mind with thoughts about ‘time’, to instead commit myself to breathe in, make a choice as a commitment to myself, and through my human body, breathe out/move myself to read the material and organize the information because I am in a physical reality: only a finite amount of tasks of real time priority, and in this I realise that my Mind as thoughts/emotions/feelings would like to make everything little thing big and important.

I commit myself to when/as I see myself avoiding doing the work out of feeling incapable, to stop and breathe. I realise that if I really committed myself to doing the work, I would decide that any feeling will not affect me giving up. I realise that when giving up is not an option according to a living self commitment, then the answer becomes simple: do everything it takes to do the work to the best that it can be because my work reflect who I will be and what I will have to live with as myself, so I either enjoy in the long run in exact detail that which I routinely expect from others, or suffer in the long run in exact detail. I commit myself to do the work daily as a stable balanced movement of will, to commit myself to the work as myself and only change the time proportion if/when something in REALITY changes, so I commit myself to stop overriding and doubting my own self commitment to specific areas of work over a feeling that exist in my head alone and isolate myself in my head alone, when I could have been breathing with every single being in the world, breathing our decisions into reality simultaneously yet one at a time.

About Kasper Kwan

Currently supporting myself in the process of establishing my words in the physical principles of Oneness and Equality. Had to start this process because I have allowed and accepted my words to be established in the mental idea of self-interest/greed, and only realised this recently.
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