I commit myself to when/as I see myself fearing others benefitting from my routine, to stop and breathe. I realise that I am creating my own fear through participating in it. I realise that my routine requires self honesty in that I must establish a routine according to who I am, where I must make sure that who I am is not defined according to what others do/say as an indication that I am committing myself to myself, meaning it doesn’t matter how long it takes, how often I must reapply myself with breath to stop participating in thoughts, whatever I do still amounts to a routine, will I participate in the Mind or participate in physical reality, this is the basic choice I face every time I breathe = physical or mind. I commit myself to stop observing others when/as I see myself compromising myself in the process, my thoughts, words, and/or deeds.
I commit myself to accept that a routine is one of the best ways to ensure that I do not abuse myself or the limited time I have here on Earth. I commit myself to stop complaining about the routine I have found that works and to just do it in that from the smaller, I create my actual future, so I commit myself to make sure that I stop distracting myself from doing the work that needs to be done, and do it sooner rather than later.
I commit myself to when/as I see myself overly wary of what other people are doing that apparently might ‘sabotage my life’, to stop and breathe. I realise that the moment I see others according to ‘sabotage’, I have made a choice to sabotage myself already through isolating myself to only see the other person in terms of ‘sabotaging capacity’, while every person has a space where they would stop sabotaging because no one wants to sabotage others, we aren’t born this way, this is why many people have families. I commit myself to stop sabotaging myself and others, to instead find ways to support others because with even one moment, why invest this moment to abuse when I could have invested into support, the work is both moment-by-moment. I commit myself to support others as myself by/through withholding judgment, placing a guard in front of my mouth, stop ALL potential of myself sabotaging and/or manipulating others for self interest, identifying the specific patterns/behaviours and understanding them first through a concrete phase of writing. I commit myself to use fear of what others will do to me as an indication of what I am already doing to myself and others because fearing others do X thing to me means I see myself possibly doing the same thing to others, which is a BIG problem that if I do not immediately direct, will only get worse, so I commit myself to when/as fearing others doing something to me, ensure that I am not THINKING about doing the same thing to others first.
I commit myself to when/as I see myself believing my routine to not be the “pace” I set for myself, where I believe/perceive others to be setting my routine for me, to stop and breathe. I realise that even though in a way, others are setting my routine, who I am within/as doing what needs to be done through a routine is up to me alone, I must trust myself to, without hope, follow a routine for myself and discipline myself. I commit myself to breathe and investigate the reactions of fear, discontentment that came up in relation to my routine.