Today I spent 2 hours on a self commitment statement I am working on for myself. Not complete so writing about it. About tests, my relationship to test taking.
Tests have been a source of mystery in that the guidelines given literally are never the true guidelines. It started with grade school testing which was weekly, biweekly, and monthly. What I understood quickly was that I could succeed in many tests, but fail even one test and I may be flagged and out of the game, but this game determines my very existence as food on the table, can I eat. What was strikingly different was any reference to the validity of the tests, the system I was placed in as grade school, was not answered: it always resulted in a personal attack or complaint about me.
So being part of a new school, new system, meant going to school from 9 am to 5 pm, plus homework, plus studying. And what the tests do not state verbatim was that to do well on the tests required always time commitment to studying specifically for that test.
Keep writing on this tomorrow.