Day 312: Rotten Love

“I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fail to see that the ‘Love’ that produce the ‘Rotten Love Syndrome’ – is in fact ‘Spoiled Love’ without principle and thus rotten within all of the aspects of its nature.”

Love that does not include the outcome of life equal for all is a diminished version of what love should be. Love is something to fear, yet not fear, when this love has produced the result of a justified state of half the world starving, with people with money with varying forms of dissatisfaction as a direct result of their environment, manifested by the system we have placed here together. Love is certainly rotten in this regard.

“I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use Love, that produces failure to honour all life equally in practical living, as ‘Love’ justified to apparently be mysteriously able to somehow produce a ‘Godly’ result just because I believe it will. Instead of me investigating all aspects of the love I express to measure if it in fact will produce the result I intended.”

Investigate all things and keep what is best. Investigate “all aspects of the love I express to measure if it in fact will produce the result I intended.” I also fell in the trap of believing love will produce a godly result without warning or any understanding of how the mechanism works.

“I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that, to believe that my intension to produce the benevolent result within a love that move within mysterious ways is in fact an irrational contradiction that cannot produce measurably what is best for life as I use it to support my real intent of self-interest that I was imprinted with as a child through the rotten child pattern.”

To produce measurably means to be accountable for both the process and the motivation, the intention and the living word, in this case love. To do so one must understand how love should work, Bernard’s blogs provide an example of what love should be in his self forgiveness statements.

“I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that I have allowed a picture of love to create a feeling of love based on my self-interest of what I want from love – to determine how I would choose in the ‘name of love’ and act in the ‘name of love’ to gain the Reward as ‘love’ to satisfy my desire for love within the particular aspects of love that I have defined as important within the nature of my love.”

Picture, to feeling, to self interest. When Bernard can so easily describe the pattern I live out, makes me want to stop to be more.

“I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that I have externalized love as the system of money and have equalized love to be only giveable to myself and others as money, and that only money could force me and others to become givers of love, and that if you have not received money I justified it that ‘in some way you have not yet earned the right to love and are therefore in some way not yet completely embracing this ‘love’’ – which has been termed the ‘Love of God’. And therefore, this ‘God’ of ‘Love’ as ‘Money’ that move in mysterious ways will only reward you with love if you accept the nature of God’s/Money’s will – unconditionally/without question; completely submitting to the way of love as God as expressed through money.”

Fascinating that love and money can be related in such an analogy. This is to illustrate the mysterious way and the harm that a mysterious way can bring, how this is justified on a personal level. And illustrating the consequence of the words we use, if that is approximately the words we use.

“I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that I have justified sex, as the physical-method through which I am able to create ‘life’ as a child to become subject to my version of rotten love – through which I can obtain my reward of pleasure; to erroneously confirm to myself, irrationally – that my version of love is justifiably acceptable within the context of how I have designed my rotten love to be the vehicle through which I will receive the just reward for my dedicated self-interest to fulfil my version of love through which I will gain a glimpse of my version of divinity – and thus, be satisfied that because my rotten love is complete, I am living my love as completeness – in spite of the evidence that my rotten love is producing suffering in such quantities that the cup of evil is spoiling every child born through the act of sex in every way to become just another version of the ‘parents’ self-interest.”

Bernard is quite plain in his speech of how I have abused sex to forward my self interest. Because it is so plain though, i receive the reward of seeing what I have done, in full awareness or I would not recognize it is me.

“I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see that my desire to consume love, to through this consumption feel ‘alive’ and confirm myself as ‘life’ – I have created a system of consumerism that is presented to me through images of love through which I can fulfil my unique individual desire of love – without seeing that my rotten love, through the acceptance of my individual self-interest, has in fact produced a system that rapidly consumes the Earth which is the giver of life in all its measure, and makes it possible for me to produce life as a child and experience myself within the context of what is available here on Earth for life to be experienced.”

The detail and history of this consumption of love is well documented in Adam Curtis’ documentaries, The Century of the Self, and The Trap. That I have not seen that the outer is a reflection of the inner in this way, is shocking. Accepting my individual self interest has produced a system of consumerism by acceptance and allowance for others to do so in my name.

“I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that I have created my consciousness within the context of my spirituality and religion to be justified as ‘acceptable’ and ‘untouchable’ in irrationality to allow me to impress and experience my version of rotten love without question, and with the agreed understanding between all participants in this spirituality and religion – that each other will be supported and honoured through a strange version of giving and receiving, where it is implied tacitly that: “I accept your version of rotten love, as long as you accept my version of rotten love – to bring into experience our self-interest, justified that we are equal in giving and allowing each other the right to this love. And that those that fail to benefit from this rotten love, have just not yet understood how to ‘love’ unconditionally in this way.” Thus, the whole world is trapped in cycles where only rotten love is allowed as ‘unconditional love’ in all aspects and versions of reality as it has been accepted.”

My spirituality and religion includes the religion of self, the culture of the unique, the psychology of being/living as The One in my life. Bernard is, through words alone, bringing an expansion to our awareness of what is in our face daily. In this case the strange version of giving and receiving in the context of rotten love.

“I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that I have allowed this rotten love to be projected through education, through music, through advertising, through television, through community organizations, through religion, through business, through family – in every way possible – to be the only love allowed on Earth and that I have trained myself and my children to take immediate action against any heretic that may question this rotten love – to crucify them verbally – even to the extent of changing words to my dimension of viewing, even if it means that my version of what the heretics are saying is outright lies; just to make sure that my self-interest and ways of rotten love will never be questioned – so that I could have happiness, fulfilment and pleasure on my own terms, as that is the ultimate fulfilment and security in a system of self-interest.”

And so I may educate myself on the details and workings of this rotten love – the pictures, the feelings, the analogy, the symbolisms, my beliefs – through education, music, advertising, television, community organisations, religion, business, family – “in every way possible”.

About Kasper Kwan

Currently supporting myself in the process of establishing my words in the physical principles of Oneness and Equality. Had to start this process because I have allowed and accepted my words to be established in the mental idea of self-interest/greed, and only realised this recently.
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