I woke up at 8 am, then for some reason, I looked at the clock. It was 9 am, and being still in bed, I decided to sleep in. Skip to 10 am. I have an appointment at 11 am in which I require at least 20 minutes to prepare and go outside. But for some reason, a feeling, I slept in until around 10.25 am. I was 5 minutes late to that appointment.
A feeling is just that – a feeling. In spite of the evidence, waking up at 8 am, getting up at 9 am to look at the clock, a feeling was what I valued more than my own time, my own reality. So don’t value the feeling – value your own time.
In many cases we tend to value our own feelings more than what reality presents us with. We let the feeling get away with escaping consequences, while the real us faces the full brunt of consequence, like sleeping in, like the typical storyline for getting a girlfriend, like playing that video game or watching that TV show over doing what needs to be done – your homework, your work, projects that you decided to be worth your time, but without the resolve to put in the time in real time.
A feeling is like a neglected addiction, isn’t it? The instant you stray, the feeling whines and complains where it hurts. Change becomes difficult, yet possible. The easiest way is actually to fight through the repulsive feeling of changing yourself. But I’m weak. I prefer to understand the repulsive feeling, making a giving into it a deliberate decision. That way I can deliberately say no and move on with my life.