Day 421: Comparison

For the past days, I’ve been writing. And building up this momentum getting in the groove of what I am supposed to do in this life. Then today hits me in the face with a sleepless night.

I am pleased that I am still applying myself in breathing. I am not pleased that there is still some kind of point that I am missing which is determining my experience of heaviness. It’s definitely not due to physical exertion. In comparison to others, I motivate myself to do more, better, faster, stronger. In fact I am always competing with others.

The funk I am experiencing subsided the moment I Realized that I am in a constant state of comparison with others, and lately have been comparing myself as inferior because I have not taken responsibility for all as one and equal. Currently a goal that is rather out of reach, but to at least take responsibility for the humankind part is good enough. Again I have beared the fruit of my own lifelong desire to be virtuous, and in doing everything I can to be so, only to see how much more I am lacking, I justify this heaviness. What is a solution onto infinity for this greed?


About Kasper Kwan

Currently supporting myself in the process of establishing my words in the physical principles of Oneness and Equality. Had to start this process because I have allowed and accepted my words to be established in the mental idea of self-interest/greed, and only realised this recently.
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