X closed a door (figuratively), and I’m writing to specify what attitude I should hold within it. She lied to me brilliantly when I asked her why she reacted to me in the way she did. The point is she decided to side with Consciousness, with the system, and not humanity as a whole. The humanity of being truthful in front of me, an equal, we all shit the same way, but alas – no communication. I’m ashamed to admit that my family is more hazardous than my work environment (co-workers). Bernard has advised generally in his interviews on YouTube, if you meet a deceiver, to disregard them and throw off your ego within it.
So throw off my ego within this. My interest is to have a filial family relationship – basically a truthful relationship with members of my family. I want to have the ‘good name’ of having a ‘good family’ backing me. I don’t want to be that guy that’s running a good business or career on black money, in other words, on money from a source that is corrupt or deceptive or misleading. But I need to understand that everyone is equally to blame hence responsible in how everything is now in one way or another, funded by so-called black money, money from devious sources. So I need to foster a ‘whatever works’ attitude with my relationship with money. I need to transmute this money from family, into something worthy of Life, something that is best for all. The blogs you are reading are my life’s work, my love made visible. So if you can hear me, investigate the Desteni message and the message of self forgiveness and if you can hear me, apply it privately with yourself over a period of time.
I repeat myself – it allowed my relationship with me and my ego to be one of integrity and self trust.
Anyway, I can’t choose where the money comes from, and all money is from the money system that’s starving half the planet. Even if the money system starves a single child, I will judge it as myself as not benevolent in any measure. So anyway, I can’t ever choose what money comes in to support me, that is fact.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the belief that family must be good, in spite of the evidence.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to spite the evidence which means spiting myself as the evidence as what *I* see, and in good intentions live spitefulness, instead of practically creating a world that is best for all and living here with no expectations in every moment HERE.
So to myself, my own advice to myself: put the expectations aside, see what is here, and decide who I am within all of what is here.
Shoutout to my brother (you know who you are) working with me – we can get along.