Today I was confronted by X about how Y and I are not getting along. So being the dastardly being that I am, I kept pointing to X being honest about himself, to which we agreed to disagree. What is fascinating in this is X refused to help us when I suggested that if Y were serious about mending the relationship, she should do it under her name through WhatsApp. He dropped the entire hit on my name the moment I insisted on a point of accountability.
Then everyone is back to deceiving everyone again. With only talk of physical happenings. Meanwhile the character lying behind the whole consciousness charade is ‘lost’ and nowhere to be heard. So at the moment I’m feeling a bit eerie about the whole thing.
Because it’s almost as if everyone is just trying to get what they want out of work and run with it. No self honesty. What is my self honesty in this?
To be ready for any event at any time? Falling back to old ruts? I better walk the cause of what is best for all. And I can’t sleep now without writing a blog. Arms are instruments of ill omen Lao Tzu wrote. Meaning I should not find solace in having the insight to give what is best for all always. Meaning when push comes to show, I only show what is relevant to both our processes.