Day 439: The Illusion of Mind

Space, time, and self. The illusion is the mind, free will, and free choice. I see that I’m still a greedy fuck, I still want to be more intelligent than others, more skilled than others, more nice than others, more good than others.

What am I really saying?

I just want to save my own ass, which is why I cannot be trusted with Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to value intelligence, skill, niceness, and goodness as more than Life.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that without this Life, that I am yet I am not equal to this Life, everything I value becomes meaningless.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that Life and valuing Life requires that I value ALL Life in ALL forms because that is Life, life is not just the confines of my body.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that to value Life, I must prove what I am to Life as myself, through SPACE and TIME process walking/breathing.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to humble myself to SPACE and TIME and SELF as FLESH and instead want to ‘be trusted’ immediately so I go into my mind where there is no consequence and imagine being trusted with everything as Life.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that being Life as what I really am, will take time and practice.

When/as I see myself wanting to be trusted by Life, I stop, I breathe. I realize that I must prove in space and time to myself as Life, no one else, and that everyone walks the same process for themselves, so I cannot complain. I commit myself to invest time and practice into learning what it means to be responsible for all of Existence.

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About Kasper Kwan

Currently supporting myself in the process of establishing my words in the physical principles of Oneness and Equality. Had to start this process because I have allowed and accepted my words to be established in the mental idea of self-interest/greed, and only realised this recently.
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