Space, time, and self. The illusion is the mind, free will, and free choice. I see that I’m still a greedy fuck, I still want to be more intelligent than others, more skilled than others, more nice than others, more good than others.
What am I really saying?
I just want to save my own ass, which is why I cannot be trusted with Life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to value intelligence, skill, niceness, and goodness as more than Life.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that without this Life, that I am yet I am not equal to this Life, everything I value becomes meaningless.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that Life and valuing Life requires that I value ALL Life in ALL forms because that is Life, life is not just the confines of my body.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that to value Life, I must prove what I am to Life as myself, through SPACE and TIME process walking/breathing.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to humble myself to SPACE and TIME and SELF as FLESH and instead want to ‘be trusted’ immediately so I go into my mind where there is no consequence and imagine being trusted with everything as Life.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that being Life as what I really am, will take time and practice.
When/as I see myself wanting to be trusted by Life, I stop, I breathe. I realize that I must prove in space and time to myself as Life, no one else, and that everyone walks the same process for themselves, so I cannot complain. I commit myself to invest time and practice into learning what it means to be responsible for all of Existence.