“The same as being on Drugs. Existence exists for drug-addicts. Everyone is on drugs the whole time through Stimulation. Stimulation is your drug, you’re addicted to Stimulation you have no idea what Life really means, no idea what self-movement means, no idea, whatsoever.” – http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/01/day-525-stimulation-addiction-part-3.html
“Have a look – take your Stimulation away, what happens to you? You’ll find you go into a Depression, you go into a Boredom, and you’re unable to get out unless you Stimulate yourself – which is what? You’re experiencing the System dying because it’s not Stimulated. That’s what you’re experiencing when you’re in a Depression and when you’re in a form of Boredom – you’re experiencing = No Stimulation!
And then you start searching and suddenly the next moment you ‘meet someone’. The ONE that can Stimulate you. And Immediately your whole body is on Fire = ‘I’m Stimulated. Please Stimulate me – I don’t mind! I’ll exist as long I’m being Stimulated.’ ” – http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/01/day-526-stimulation-existence-as-one.html
Someone told me that I was a human being with potential and opportunities – nothing more, nothing less. Bernard here is suggesting that everything I’ve walked and experienced and sought to experience is because of a need for stimulation. I’ve been blogging almost daily for awhile and I realize I need a change in direction.
The present direction I’ve been explaining for awhile, without realizing it until now, has been a poor advertising of virtue over money. When what I need to be doing is understanding what designs and market forces got me to this position on Earth with peculiarities of thought. Certain aspects of human existence that I value more than Life itself, so to speak. I understand what I am is layered information that believes that according to the stimulation I receive from reality, I’m making a free choice to decide what blog I’m going to write, what I’m going to do today. This action-reaction dynamic where I cater to my stimulation’s every designed purpose is me blindly accepting the purpose laid before me, instead of considering all things and doing what’s best. The current environment and circumstances I find myself in living it is a manifestation of the negative polarity as a consequence for the slow deliberate accumulation of positive that I accepted and allowed over years of my life.
What I must live with thus is no one and nothing is here to specifically stimulate me to feel like my purpose is right and is accepted by the majority. I keep saying to myself this time in my life is a transitionary phase. I’m given the time I would like to seriously consider what to do next. I would like to literally walk through my history of stimulation to not repeat it or mutate it into ‘better stimulation’. I suppose that’s why I disagree with the option of designing my world and the inputs to my mind to cater to my definition of happiness; I see ‘my happiness’ as something already preprogrammed with biases founded in the past. To live my definition of happiness will be to accept myself as a product of the past and my environment and upbringing, instead of what I would like to do which is challenge and destroy or make irrelevant my upbringing to give me space to consider Life.
What people found out and I must accept as myself is I am essentially deluded. I create my own experiences in my world and design the experiences that I deeply desire through the action of seeking. I would like my blog to be a discovery of what is already here as myself and a real time embracing of my rich history, to actually learn from it, instead of repeating the same message. Which is what I observed over the weeks I’ve been blogging: I’ve been exploring contexts in which the same message repeats itself.
Readers, thanks for reading. I invite you guys to read my Journey to Life, I hope to share an exciting process of the same caliber as Creation’s Journey to Life.