Just occurred to me that when I die, all my thoughts may be revealed to everyone so I am accountable. Not so much scary but embarassing. In Desteni it’s implied that there is much more to reality than what we can currently conceive, and that only when we are living integrity do we ‘get access’. But the ‘access’ is not considered the responsibility and the conditions for the access, for example right now having all you ever thought about being revealed to everyone and being able to say you’ve changed. Or what the responsibility is for being able to communicate to the physical universe.
What does giving up self interest imply? What does the realization that you are everything imply? It would imply no more desires or wants or needs for anything more than what you already have, and no secrets, and full intimacy and vulnerability to everyone. For example. Knowing the danger and knowing the cause of that danger in human minds, one cannot resort to self defence anymore.
In short a lot of conveniences I have with a mind become gone but only if I work towards giving self interest up. It’s well possible I can be selfish on the subtlest level for my entire life.