Today my eldest sister came here from Canada. It’s always interesting to hear other people tell stories because they each tell it differently. It’s difficult to think of what stories to tell when no hardship or pain is here to motivate me to tell a story. That’s my way of saying nothing happened today either.
Addiction, or temptation, or obsession, everyone must educate themselves to avoid. In my life, that’s been aspect number one in my curriculum. It’s really easy to say I don’t know enough about myself to stop being tempted, but it’s best to find out as soon as you don’t know. Staying too long in ‘I don’t know’ breeds insecurity and loss of will. I’ve been practicing to say to myself bluntly what are the necessary things and what aren’t, and that lends a perspective on the nature of wants, needs, and desires that maybe reveal its or my true nature. The value of despair within addiction is it’s pretty useless. Act at once to eradicate all tendencies to doubt yourself by for example, rummaging through all your memories to find the cause of your addiction. It’s worse to stay in between knowing and not knowing about yourself to know how all your personalities exist that resort to addiction. Self forgiveness helps if/when you’ve acted on a belief that didn’t have to exist, that you see harmed yourself. Doesn’t change anything but how you’re going to live from now on. For something that’s for free, that’s quite substantial.
When you’re there, nothing works so why not try self forgiveness? The worst is you half ass even your self forgiveness and you’re useless. Waiting for events to force your hand.