I would think I’m in agony for being banned from Desteni, which I understand to be individuals walking alone together. A well respected member contacted me to show concern for me. The problem is when he showed interest in the reason why I was banned, he asked me, rejected asking the authority, and told me I’m bothered by my exclusion. Not as bothered but embarrassed at the sense of superiority I harboured during my time with Desteni. Desteni is no longer Bernard’s ship because he died, who’s steering the ship is someone else. In or out, I’m human and part of the species of humans and a speck of dust representing existence like every dust.
Even Bernard noted the message he communicated would be a difficult message to hear in his last interviews. Without Bernard QC, everyone’s blogs decreased in quality as going deeper, but enthusiasm is well and good. It’s unrevealed and unexplained how Desteni judges people to be black or white. For the same reason I was told what I was saying in my blog is unacceptable without a written reason. I was judged harshly for thinking I didn’t post my blog in the respective Facebook group, and post again but my original post was actually taken down. “Kasper, what is your problem?” Yes, I’m the problem.