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Day 185: No One Cares If I Am Smart!!!

I commit myself to when/as I see myself believing that I have no support to be ‘intelligent’ out of the excuse that no one cares if I am not intelligent and starve, to stop and breathe. I realise that I … Continue reading

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Day 176: Might As Well Not Try

I commit myself to when/as I see myself believing that my participation, anything I do, is useless, to stop and breathe. I realise that every moment I victimize myself to not participate, every day I participate in the same habits/patterns … Continue reading

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Day 157: Only I Have To Live With My Decisions

Continued from Day 156: Frustration To Overwhelmingness: I commit myself to when and as I ask others for answers, to eventually blame ‘them’ for not having an answer I can live with as accumulate real consequences for the rest of … Continue reading

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Day 113: Disappointed At Myself Means Disappointed At My World

This is a continuation from: Day 106: Being Accepted Day 107: Desire To Be Accepted Day 109: Acceptance As Precursor To Manipulation Day 110: Working Hard Day 111: But The World Isn’t Accepting Me! Day 112: Delving Into Acceptance Issues … Continue reading

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Day 99: Haggard Yet?

I Forgive myself for accepting and allowing the belief that after doing the same thing for long enough, I must feel exasperated and haggard. I realise that although I may do the same thing over a substantial period of time, … Continue reading

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Day 29: Copying is my Best Talent

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing fear to dictate my participation in a moment when I have a thought about judging myself or other people judging my actions. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the belief that if … Continue reading

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Day 28: Reactive Behaviour

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hide and suppress the responsibility I have for ALL of my reactions to/towards other people. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resort to blame as an apparently valid … Continue reading

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When Writing Self Forgiveness Statements

When writing self forgiveness statements I do not want to project some sort of ‘high and mighty’ self image of myself.  By definition of self forgiveness statements, if I fuck around and project something that I am not in that … Continue reading

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Exploring My Past With Education

My failures at school.  Until now, I have allowed and accepted these memories to be coupled with feelings of regret, shame, immense self-judgment.  Today I realise I have not forgiven myself for these things yet.  And I realise that all … Continue reading

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