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Day 238: Investigating Test Taking Mentality, Part 4

Tests were also primarily the ‘lynchpin’ where I interpreted ‘the world’ to be ‘imposing’ rules on me at a swift pace.  I was being educated on how to be a predator that must apparently compete to survive as a emotional … Continue reading

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Day 235: Investigating Test Taking Mentality, Part 2

I was introduced to tests as a form of competing against others, where a world of people would be ranked and half were thrown out, my mind’s reasoning was that the minimum grade was 60% for a pass, so I … Continue reading

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Day 234: Investigating Test Taking Mentality

From doing what interested me and I clearly saw within myself the usefulness of the topic I was studying, grade school presented a different set of rules.  Uniform, which was a small detail.  A fixed curriculum, with a fixed pace … Continue reading

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Day 233: Fixating Attention On Tests

What was immediately clear when I arrived in grade school was that I was being placed into a routine.  What alarmed me was as time progressed, the demands were greater in that they required more time to be actually done.  … Continue reading

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Day 105: Studying is Not So Difficult

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define studying according to a memory where I reacted in anger to my mother for not being able to explain why I was studying continuously. When/as I see myself participating in … Continue reading

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Day 90: Learning For Profit Alone

I Forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define learning according to getting higher marks COMPARED to everyone else, in this participating in the need/want/desire to be/become more/superior in an underlying fear of being less/inferior. I realise that when … Continue reading

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Day 31: Study Habits

After studying for enough time, I stopped focusing and started being possessed by backchat. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to lose focus and be possessed by a neverending train of thoughts/emotions/feelings as backchat when I have studied … Continue reading

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Day 7: Do Pictures Really Steal Your Soul?

Since working with a greater acceptance of what mistakes are here for – within the context of practical living and what is best for all – another habit/pattern was revealed to me. When I feel like I am accomplishing something, … Continue reading

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