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Day 239: Test Taking Mentality

Learning was reduced into a petty competition through the test form.  I couldn’t enjoy learning anymore – I had to compete.  I couldn’t just learn anymore = I had to be the best, perfect myself, and perfect myself.  Everyone was … Continue reading

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Day 232: Perfection Religion

I commit myself to when/as I see myself believing that only perfection will ensure my survival in this moment, to stop and breathe.  I realise that my sudden demand for perfection from myself is from the starting point of panicking … Continue reading

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Day 222: Forcing Performance

I commit myself to when/as I see myself forcing myself to do something without understanding my self imposed limitations and attempt to ‘pretend my excuses/justifications are not there’, to stop and breathe. I realise that citing perfection as the reason … Continue reading

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Day 219: Tensing Up The Body

Getting tense in my body again.  And the first thoughts I have are how the people around me – everything and everyone else – are making me tense.  This is survival paranoia, lately I have been using the arm bar … Continue reading

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Day 155: Pressure to Succeed

From Day 154: Overwhelm Yourself to Control Yourself “My mother continuously pushed, but one point nagged at me: doing one thing zealously was how cults were formed and how people deceive themselves. If I am to put all of myself into … Continue reading

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Day 130: I Can Only Do So Much…

Day 128: Promotion as Fear of Failure Day 129: You Don’t Work Hard Self Commitment Statement When/as I see myself applying myself in my studies and fear comes up, I stop and breathe. I realise that even if I study … Continue reading

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