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Day 204: Memory

I commit myself to when/as I see routine as someone trying to control me, to stop and breathe.  I realise that a memory of believing I am being controlled triggered and to avoid the unpleasant experience generates friction until I … Continue reading

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Day 138: What’s Wrong With Reacting?

This is part of a series to understand a character I’ve been accepting and allowing to define my life for me: Day 136: Abandonment/Aloneness Character, Introduction Day 137: Abandonment Character, Problem Problem “Your Memory is Selective. Your Memory is by … Continue reading

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Day 106: Being Accepted

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take my mother yelling at me personally and conclude that I am what is making her so angry. When/as I see another person being angry and yelling at me, I stop … Continue reading

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Day 100: Why The Thirst For Knowledge???

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define learning according to a secret plot to win my mother’s approval. When/as I see myself learning with the ‘hidden’ want to seek approval from an outside source such as my … Continue reading

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Exploring My Past With Education

My failures at school.  Until now, I have allowed and accepted these memories to be coupled with feelings of regret, shame, immense self-judgment.  Today I realise I have not forgiven myself for these things yet.  And I realise that all … Continue reading

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