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Day 713: When You Have A Childhood Resentment, What Should You Do That’s Best For Your World?

Lingering resentments from my past I’ve brought to my attention, which makes me curious how to dispel them. Because when you’re faced with a deep resentment, it always seems easier to do what is taught but in that view the … Continue reading

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Day 239: Test Taking Mentality

Learning was reduced into a petty competition through the test form.  I couldn’t enjoy learning anymore – I had to compete.  I couldn’t just learn anymore = I had to be the best, perfect myself, and perfect myself.  Everyone was … Continue reading

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Day 217: The Psychological Impact Of Perfection

Yesterday I did not post because of postponing writing until too early in the morning. Perfection and work. For the sake of perfection as my survival, work became a constant continuous race against others with no choice but to participate. … Continue reading

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Day 216: Survival, Perfection, Ambition

“I hate this pressure to always be perfect. Impossible.” Perfection as an idea was not introduced to me until grade school, when in my Mind, I was suddenly faced with the equation of survival and how everything fit into this … Continue reading

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Day 85: It’s Very Simple: Learn or Die. You Decide!

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be obsessed with competition when/as learning with others, competing through means such as teaching others how to do questions and being taught how to do questions, how quickly we finish a … Continue reading

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When Am I Going To Stop?

Yesterday, I said ‘yes’ to thoughts, and fulfilling the delusion that is energy.  Here, today, I am facing the consequences of indulging in such affairs, and facing myself as the ‘honest’ want/need/desire to satisfy my thoughts. At the time, I … Continue reading

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