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Day 239: Test Taking Mentality

Learning was reduced into a petty competition through the test form.  I couldn’t enjoy learning anymore – I had to compete.  I couldn’t just learn anymore = I had to be the best, perfect myself, and perfect myself.  Everyone was … Continue reading

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Day 229: Foundation Of Perfection As Panicking About Survival

I commit myself to when/as I see myself panicking about what I am doing to survive – have I made the right choice to do X, what if the one action I choose is wrong – to stop and breathe. … Continue reading

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Day 221: Staking Perfection On Survival

I commit myself to when/as I see myself reaching for a definition of perfection that is unattainable and I see my survival hanging on whether I become ‘perfect’ or not, to stop and breathe. I realise that I separate myself … Continue reading

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Day 218: Perfection and Time

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that only perfection as perfect work and perfect everything will ensure my survival. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself into believing … Continue reading

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Day 218: Pressure To Be Perfect

Writing self forgiveness statements for Day 216: Survival, Perfection, Ambition, to open up the writing further to investigate my relationship to perfection. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pressure myself to survive and interpret surviving according … Continue reading

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Day 217: The Psychological Impact Of Perfection

Yesterday I did not post because of postponing writing until too early in the morning. Perfection and work. For the sake of perfection as my survival, work became a constant continuous race against others with no choice but to participate. … Continue reading

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Day 110: Working Hard

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to expect myself to miraculously achieve every standard with doing less and less work. When/as I see myself judging myself for how much work I am doing to manifest one point … Continue reading

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Day 84: Learning Obsession

I Forgive myself for accepting and allowing the imagination that I have done countless things ‘right’, but something ‘wrong’, that invalidates everything I have done and everything I have earned because of doing the ‘right’ things, to become a reason … Continue reading

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Day 36: Getting Ahead

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be/become aware of myself from the starting point of fear, as reflected by/as fear of other people. I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see/realise/understand that if I … Continue reading

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Day 23: One More Word And You’re Done – Gone

written on 5 June 2012 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the belief that there is no room for error when with other people. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to attempt to hide and suppress my … Continue reading

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