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Day 239: Test Taking Mentality

Learning was reduced into a petty competition through the test form.  I couldn’t enjoy learning anymore – I had to compete.  I couldn’t just learn anymore = I had to be the best, perfect myself, and perfect myself.  Everyone was … Continue reading

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Day 233: Fixating Attention On Tests

What was immediately clear when I arrived in grade school was that I was being placed into a routine.  What alarmed me was as time progressed, the demands were greater in that they required more time to be actually done.  … Continue reading

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Day 231: Test Taking Fears

I commit myself to when/as I see myself interpreting tests as master over my life, a slave to tests, to stop and breathe.  I realise that tests are not the sum total of all the moments of my life, the … Continue reading

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Day 191: School And Coercion

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the delusion that I was changing because my routine was being manhandled by school from the perspective that to do well on a test, I would have to actually do work, … Continue reading

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Day 128: Promotion as Fear of Failure

Opening a point of promotion as preparation to succeed, seeking for more: Promotion never was in my thoughts until 10 years old. I had a person that I looked up to and wanted to be like, I wanted to achieve … Continue reading

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Day 104: Studying Is Hard

Changing the study habits once and for all, by/through walking through one excuse at a time I began to define studying according to capitulating when I started being more enticed by entertainment than studying, but then my mother did not … Continue reading

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Day 92: Learning Woes

I Forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to deliberately diminish my learning ability because I did not enjoy myself within/as learning effectively, in which I immediately projected outward onto other people who were getting similar grades to me. I … Continue reading

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Day 89: Learning Must Not Become a Culture

When learning becomes a culture, we have a generation of human beings obsessed with learning, some of which react to the below thoughts productively, while others freeze up and severely compromise themselves in their world, such as me.  Where is … Continue reading

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Day 83: Fear of Failure Within Learning, Facing Excuses

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear failure because of a memory where I had done something, and then convinced myself that I had done something absolutely wrong and therefore absolutely unforgivable, even by myself. When and … Continue reading

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Day 82: Fear of Failure Within Learning

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear failure. When and as I see myself fearing failing, I stop and breathe.  I realise that the cost of participating in fear is distracting myself from what is here and … Continue reading

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