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Day 238: Investigating Test Taking Mentality, Part 4

Tests were also primarily the ‘lynchpin’ where I interpreted ‘the world’ to be ‘imposing’ rules on me at a swift pace.  I was being educated on how to be a predator that must apparently compete to survive as a emotional … Continue reading

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Day 235: Investigating Test Taking Mentality, Part 2

I was introduced to tests as a form of competing against others, where a world of people would be ranked and half were thrown out, my mind’s reasoning was that the minimum grade was 60% for a pass, so I … Continue reading

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Day 208: Staying Up Late

Writing late at night, when at around 10.30 pm I was already getting sleepy. Instead of heeding my body and preparing to go to bed, my habit of staying up and writing late popped up like a thought in my … Continue reading

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Day 163: I Have A Choice To Stop Working

Part of a series of posts: Day 154: Overwhelm Yourself to Control Yourself Day 155: Pressure to Succeed Day 156: Frustration To Overwhelmingness Day 157: Only I Have To Live With My Decisions Day 159: Only One Way To Survive … Continue reading

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Day 160: Authority Clash

Part of a series of posts I am doing to dismantle myself: Day 154: Overwhelm Yourself to Control Yourself Day 155: Pressure to Succeed Day 156: Frustration To Overwhelmingness Day 157: Only I Have To Live With My Decisions Day … Continue reading

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Day 139: Normal As Group Psychology

This is part of a series: Day 136: Abandonment/Aloneness Character, Introduction Day 137: Abandonment Character, Problem “The first turning point was a moment when I believed that I was not normal – I had to react in some way to … Continue reading

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Day 123: Drive To Success

Below is an expansion of Day 121: Me First!!!! and Day 122: Winners Are Simply Willing to Do What Losers Don’t “I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to drive myself to be first in as many … Continue reading

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