The money system is collapsing. No miracle will be handed by a god, the money system will not become greater after this collapse. Desire is more than Life; Money, numbers, papers are more than Life; Love is more than Life, Life is at the bottom of the ladder. What does it imply to give up self-interest? Every part of human society, powerful or not, is going to have to realise their responsibility in creating and allowing the world to become a mess.
What does giving up your life mean? Does it mean to value something higher than your desires? Does it mean to serve a principle more than your desire to have and control your desired objects? We all KNOW there is something deceptive about an appearance, yet how are we attracted to appearances and sex the most? Love is seen as sex, it’s not, but it is seen as that. Love is valued more than money, if money is seen as necessary to buy Love, money will be more than Love. Money buys love, but in fact money buys sex. Prostitution is a great aid to the institution of Love as consumerism as capitalism. Every single moment, someone is basically hiring prostitutes in the back roads to have and control their objects of desire, to fulfil their sexual desires.
How come people cannot hear anything they are not educated or impulsed to understand? How come we see the world going to shit because of bullshit, but like a foreign language see everything happening but not seeing the common sense within it? How come it is so difficult to use common sense to interpret what is happening in our country and in our personal lives? From personal experience, part of the problem is this ravenous monster called Love. It’s the impulsive aspect of myself that overrides all rationality I can muster when it’s time to make a decision. It’s the misinterpretation that Love is sex, and therefore my sexual desire that comes up naturally is interpreted as a desire for love. Is it really the solution to do what you love, more than do what needs to be done? Is it really the answer to only accept positive people and hide away from the negative? Or put it this way, to only do what you love and avoid what you hate? Love and hate are both abstract ideas that startle and force us to reaction. They attract and repel until we are walking the fine line that locks us down into a state where we will never change the world, and we believe we chose this fate, and that it is my free choice to choose this fate.
It was suggested by a man that both what I love and hate are both part of the same delusion. Roughly speaking, it’s the delusion that Energy is more important and powerful than the Physical, that the impulse to destroy myself with love or hate is a more powerful force than seeing and understanding the ill and sick fate I leave the world in, if I succumb to this impulse, and understanding what I am accepting and allowing by letting emotions dictate my fate and destiny.
I have had the thinking for awhile that every penny I spend on conveniences and pleasure, is locking myself and everyone else into a world without change, and if the world and we do not change fundamentally we’re obviously going to turn the world into shit because of mental bullshit of value hierarchies and self interested desires that express themselves as impulsive behaviours. Right now, money is directing the flow of love, is dictating the fate of Life. The industrial evolution has been basically studying the impulses of the human creature and catering to what pre-existed before our birth, having the delusion that we cannot change what is already manifested itself as behaviour. The technological evolution has been the law of attraction: studying human behaviour, making conclusions about what will attract the attention of the majority to the point of them embracing the point, then you become rich. Not powerful, power is greatly misunderstood, but rich. Think Apple and iPod. iPhone. Twitter. Taobao. TikTok. Twitch.
Word of mouth via the cellphone has become the most powerful force that exists.
How can I realize the solution if I am still allowing Love or the desire for Love to dictate and drive me to “my” destiny through an impulse? How can I accept more liquid in my glass if it is already full of pulses from others and the cellphone, heck not to mention the impulses I don’t understand within me? To have a “greater” understanding it’s common sense to realize you’re going to have to give up your self-perception that you’re intelligent and that your perspective is right; must empty the cup before it can be filled with better liquid. That is probably the most difficult thing in Existence: to be self-honest that everything you thought to be good and bad are BOTH illusions, BOTH delusions, BOTH designed to lock you down. It probably takes great humbleness to commit to a public blogging of personal self-forgiveness and actually writing to be relevant to yourself exactly where you are, with exactly the troubles and suffering you are experiencing. Do we know ourselves if we are still disgusted to our gut at certain specific aspects about this world and about other people and about ourselves?