I asked a question on the Desteni forums that I thought was a good opportunity for Desteni to give a short answer to why people should listen. Though the material is expanding and profusely detailed, I might argue the most detailed material on all sorts of aspects of the human experience, the potential of it supporting anyone falls every time someone doesn’t want to listen. Desteni is shocking, but the results of the normal views we hold is much more shocking. A world at economic war with the people with money never happier, where tiny spaces of people can manage a happy experience amongst themselves while the rest of the space in a country is busy surviving and working. Everyone with a reason to not look at society and the characteristic problems of a city. People raised to be self righteous and emotional, bored to be moved to search for the next high. People taught to not investigate, because if people read Desteni without emotional reactions, which is proven highly unlikely, of which I fall into a tiny minority, they would get the message and realize it’s not a brainwashing message, it’s bringing the Jesus message into the vernacular and situations relevant to this age, spelling out what is self change in unprecedented specificity.
Self improvement industry, all of it, even to this day, cannot be assed to write in the detail that Desteni explains about each emotional condition, about situations that we face, about things we face in ourselves.
But at the time of this blog, I’ve received no answer to my question. I will see if the people there will see what opportunity I’ve opened up, or whether they will give themselves an excuse like how long and hard they’ve worked and not bother with my question. “Come over to South Africa if you want to know these answers.” “I can’t be assed to write a reply to this question from a person I’ve never met in person.” “I’ve worked hard enough for long enough that excuses me from making answering this question a ‘have to’.” “Being a person at the farm is difficult and work long hours I don’t have the energy nor the time to answer such a question.” “He can ask his question, I have my choice to not answer it.”
I think people at the Desteni Farm representing Desteni, should hold a responsibility to their own group, Desteni, to demonstrate the difference between them and most other people making good money in the system. What is it about their principles that differentiate a person on the Desteni Farm from any person in the system. Because that’s the thinking all people in the system have: why should I listen to you?
Edit (28 May 2018): I’m flagged for committing treason on Desteni, that I have personality issues, also implying there is nothing that isn’t already clear on the value of Desteni as a group of people doing one way of creating some world change. I disagree that Desteni’s value is clear, if being critical sometimes makes me a hater and I’m flagged as opposition to Desteni and I’m banished from the group, I think I would be an example of what is and isn’t allowed when you talk back and forth with any part of Desteni, to discredit their godly intentions.
Every group claims to be doing good, that’s why when anything declares it people naturally become suspicious. They feel and believe, listen to internet rumours, instead of checking the goods or words for themselves since it’s already written in stone I suppose.
And despite orders, I rather edit this blog than erase it from the internet as a matter of me clarifying my intent and making clear what I am here to say. It’s been 10 years, and Desteni’s value that their people say is apparent and obvious to anyone, inherent already infused into the very words of the message, I can’t say I disagree, but saying that any person can read any part and immediately get it, escapes even my intelligence. The intentions are stated, and they are just words, there are alot of people stalking Desteni because of this reason, because something never is until it is.
Whatever I do or they do, we got to be more mature about this than say to each other we have problems. Because people that read any part are also always considering, and so I disagree that the matter was settled, but we live in a human world where people can cooperate in this day and age. But I won’t erase my mistake, I would rather correct it and prove to myself in stone that I have settled the matter. Until further back and forth, I will continue to edit this post as it chugs along.
Edit (29 May 2018): Desteni admins are holding a meeting to decide the best way forward and just told me personally.
We’re just people, I don’t get the seriousness of what I’ve written. It contains alot of spite and frustration vented towards Desteni. I’m blind to that venting part. I see myself as saying the difficulty of a message like Desteni. I may have personality issues. I don’t see this affecting how I am being treated from the back and forth. I don’t see how Desteni is responding that’s responding to my needs, I see an organisation that’s saying it’s an organisation and they need to hold a meeting to decide the best way forward.
Edit: (30 May 2018): Sponsorship for the DIP course is revoked. I cycled from self righteousness, to embarassment, to thinking I’m wrong, then re-reading what I’ve wrote and still not seeing the frustration and spite I’ve vented towards Desteni. Am I blaming others by writing that? Has it been a recurrent problem in my relationship with the people at Desteni, to blame others and refuse to help myself?
The thing about the tools is it’s all on the premise that whatever happens I am at fault, I am to blame, and then through self forgiveness one take responsibility and not allow that something to happen again, or if it happens, to direct the thing to solution.
Recent events show I have been blaming others and refusing to help myself. What part of this blog specifically am I blaming others? I received a personal reply and I interpreted it as maybe the people over there aren’t going to answer my question. The meeting was held and my sponsorship was revoked, so they think I’m beyond help at this point with a recurrent problem of blaming others and if I want help, I have to write for a minimum of 1 year writing the things they approve of that has to do with me taking responsibility for my life.
But I reread my blog and don’t see how spiteful and blaming it is. I see an organisation dedicated to protect itself. Spiting the spiteful for a moment, but I’m calm.