Letting the old die, and the new be birthed. The cost of self interest is always more than one anticipate. As much as self interest is purely destructive, ever repeating ad nauseum patterning, self interest is the mind, and the mind is an ultimate training ground. Meaning, there’s much to learn about inner invisible self direction as a directive principle from that which enslaved us to our patterns, the mind, our mind that represents the systematized version of our beingness, so the mind is not our enemy, it is not interfering with anything, the mind is us.
I used to hold a thinking that living harmony and promoting peace, you only have to annihilate all war and violent tendencies and preferences. A more complete definition of how to live harmony and peace would be the following analogy: the mind is an airplane, and because all our life we have been in this plane we don’t realize we’re in a plane high off the ground. Having irrational moods, repeating emotional states, ups and downs without clear direction of what is here, are the litmus test indicating we’re still subject to a mind consciousness system, also having impulses to buy goods and services, having impulses to eat late night snacks, impulses to masturbate, impulses to not masturbate but watch porn to be entertained. The mind IS us, so wouldn’t we like to, as the plane, be landed by a master pilot that gets perfect the soft landing? I used to think I wanted to crash the plane and shower myself in the pane/pain in a fit of rage and vengeful sentiments. The key that led me to this realization of what I want, is in real time, in real moments, where I can quote to myself the amount of times I looked at my mind, looked at my behavior, and recognized that it is a part of me. Not apart of me, a part of me.
But it’s the nature of the process and journey to Life. When you get how harmony works as a living example of one human’s thoughts words and deeds, it’s near impossible to teach someone to do the same and I’ll explain why. It’s like athletes and their posture and ergonomics of movement. No one but themselves are injecting personality into their human physical body, causing it to move in less efficient ways. So it is with the mind: no one but each of us individually towards ourselves, is holding the past against ourselves, causing us to have vengeful and angry and irritated and stressful tendencies and preferences. It’s like asking the question, “How am I going to in a practical process of speaking words, lead but not do it for people to understand all playouts of their preferred way of living as a kind of selfishness under free will and free choice, and in other words realize the folly of free will and free choice, that because I am life already I have no choice but to support Life in all its reflections, so no choice is free?”
To teach someone how to live harmoniously is equal to asking the question, “How am I going to make people realize their own harm and destruction they’re doing to themselves by/through memories infused with emotions AND feelings, without their idolizing me when I have revealed their self deception?” It is very true to the utmost that if each one had the will to change permanently and walk that with diligence and commitment and brutal reverence for themselves as Gods unto their own minds, that would be ideal. The best thing is to investigate for yourself, by yourself, worshipping the firsthand experience and awareness. The ‘worst’ thing is for someone to give up their effort to see and rely on your sight to see what they already know about themselves, but are unwilling to change. In essence, all each person can do for another, to the nth degree, is reveal self deception: but the choice is theirs to make to correct or keep on that train track.
It’s been brought to my attention that in essence, each and every single day and present day and present moment – my words, thinking, spoken, and behaving, should only always 24/7 assist and support another in the principle of Equality and Oneness in guiding people to their own realizations, and should not be knives, that I throw towards others in a “I don’t give a fuck what happens” attitude. Words are the primary tool with which I assist and support myself to change permanently, why am I unwilling to use the same tool to help others, but be willing to knife people with spoken words like gossip interpersonally and personal gossip/backchat?
Kasper's Journey To Life 